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I leave for Boston tomorrow for the first day of Bike and Build. For a few days I was really nervous about it. I put the poor workers at CitySports through an epic meltdown. I went in on a lark, thinking that I needed an extra fleece because I might get cold on the trip. Somehow, that morphed into needing tank tops because I only had two packed and I should really have three, because what if I want to wear a tank top three days in a row and don't have a chance to do laundry? After trying on an armload of tank tops I remembered that I had another one that just needed to be washed, so I didn't need a tank top after all. Then i went through the sweatpants (it might be too cold for shorts and i won't feel like jeans), before slinking out of the store with just an on-sale sports bra, trying my best not to look like a crazy person.

After that faze, I've started to become less worried about the trip and more aware of the fact that starting the trip also means leaving Providence, my home for the last four years. I've really gained a family here of people I really care about and will really really miss. I've been so happy here, I can't imagine not being here. Tonight I spent some time with a bunch of different friends trying to do things I think I'll miss (meeting street cookies, swinging in the playground, going to the gcb) and I kept wanting to just stop time and stay in those places forever.